Mindful Noise

Just write it off as c'est la vie Write off all my pain to ease Silence gets longer Between words that get shorter Did I hear you whisper A wishful thinker I know why it pains to see You write it off as c'est la vie Want you to want me A second longer But I asked for it You need to be stronger So I'll sing the song called c'est la vie Cause I know that's how its going to be Laugh or cry it's the same to me I'll be the one to set me free

Lonely with you together Makes it that much better I'm the only one you need But you're not the only one I see Give me your all, your heart and soul I wouldn't even take the whole Love you on Tuesdays Forget you on Wednesdays But can't walk away Heart wants to play With fire, your fire I call you to tell you It's the lonely together type of weather

Almost found you So hold on just for now I'm going under Then I'll drift to you I'm in your system In your orbit So come unravel my mind I know you'll want all of me I'll piece together the broken bits So you can have all of me

Faithful as a dog with no leash,   Looking for crumbs,   Following the master who once   Generously loved. Foolish as one's first love,   Praying to the heavens above,   Exchanging sanity for a reason,   Any reason to love. Devoted as the moon to earth,   Except she was the sun,   Acting like you hardly knew   She was navigating you. Now you appear,   Whispering regrets in her ear,   All the pain you ignored   When she was faithfully yours.

I can't see you most of the time But I see you in my mind all of the time I hate how you always stay on my mind Do I take up any space in your mind? You come and go like tidal waves Tied to your waves and how they behave When you have to go you have to go But wait, you'll let me pull you in The rest, my silence will fill you in Who's permission am I waiting for To let my love for you to soar For you I want to take the fall But I'll say it don't bother me at all

Awake and asleep Enjoying the chasm Things that I dream of  Nobody needs to know of Certain and confused Question the feelings Words that are unclear Gets clearer when you're near Confident and fearful Precious moments that cause pain Swaying between should and want Past mistakes that haunt But I'll knock myself out There's always doubt Fool me once then fool me twice Won't know until we throw the dice -August 18, 2022

There we'll run in the clouds Where we'll know the ins and outs Play hide and seek with night and day You'll chase me through the rays But on and on we build a past Tell me can your love really last When the ground falls And the time calls Can you carry me with your wings? When I go will you chase me then Then if not now can you say when When I cry will you smile for me then Then if not now can you say when When I fall will you love me then Then if not now can you say when -August 17, 2022

  High notes low notes and the keys in between The melody I played while you weren't here High tides low tides and the adventures in between The distances you swam while I wasn't there Could we ever collide How much longer will we hide Behind the mask of a father,  of a daughter? You didn't stay enough to know You left a hole so deep to grow Two little girls dancing in dresses Filling the hole with guesses It's helpless Could we ever collide How much longer will we hide Behind the mask of a father, of a daughter? -August 16, 2022

  I act like I know you, but I don't. But I don't want to stop, I won't. Before the game's over Ask me to come over It could be right, it could be wrong Ask me to just come along I can smell the feelings as you get closer Running the same lines over and over Rehearsing your touch on my skin And your hands that wander through and in We say we want to take it slow Clearly headed for a quick show What's the antidote To moving too fast our heads afloat Dance the dance and we'll know If we'll still be here past the pre-show You made me believe things could be right So I dive in head first into this tide -August 16, 2023